Well...the decision has been made.
We're moving.
I absolutely hate the thought of it. I DON'T WANT TO DO IT! But I don't have a choice. I can't afford my gorgeous house any more. I don't think it's completely sunk in yet - it will when I have to sign the papers and it's done. That night - I'm going to cry like a baby. I'm so freaking stressed out right now - I have a headache all the time.
I want to stay here and be happy for a while, but I'm not allowed to have that.
I've realized that every time I start to get content - something happens. Either I get sick, the husband loses his job, my mother dies....something. It's about every 3 years or so that it happens, and I'm heartily tired of it. I don't want drama - I want a quiet life. Why can't I have it? what have I done that's soooo wrong that I can't be happy for a while?
Well...that's it for now. My tummy hurts and I need to sleep.
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Namaste
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