May 31, 2023

It's been a long time, and I really have no excuse. May 31, 2023

 I've not been all that busy, but I really didn't have much to say - so I didn't.


Covid is still a thing, I'm still wearing masks, and I once again need to scream into the ether.


Why am I being punished? What the HELL did I do to deserve this? I finally found what I thought was a great new place. NOPE.  It vibrates. all day, all night.  I can't get away from it, and it never ends.  

I'm going mad.  I'm trying to get out, but of course - delays.  I was hoping to hear today about a new place (again) but nope.  I'm tired.

I can't even. I'm done.  I'm tired.  I can't "be strong" and "resilient" anymore.  

I just want some peace.  no motorcycles, no vibrations, no noise.  Why?  WHY can't I have that? 

I can't eat

I can't sleep

and I can't function properly.  I've lost over 10lbs in 2ish weeks. 


Dear universe, it's time.  I've been asking...and now, I'm desperate. I'm DEMANDING - either a giant lottery win or a proper place that I can live without pain.